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i dont really know what to type or what to say. I really want to talk to someone in person but i didnt have the courage to ask at the self harm group. I just thought if i did i would burst into tears. Then my therapist has let me down again and she was being all nice and two faced and i really am so pissed at her i wanted to hit her. But really i need help i need someone to hear me. The nurse looking after my arm said she felt badly for me and i should go online and get someone to talk to but noone is here either not even on msn. But then again i dont talk to many people anymore so it all falls on that one or two people and its not fair. I achieved something sop good today i wrote a paper for a girl i met on a mental health ward to help her with self harm and its now being added to our self harm booklet. But it didnt make me feel no better

Major triggers.... i need to say this somewhere. My abuser....... when i was little. Its the one thing i dont doubt and never have. He held me over a railway bridge when a train was coming. A screaming kid kicking and screaming how did he know he wouldnt drop me by accident? I need help i cant deal with anything. Soory iu had to say it

(((((((((((((Sami)))))))))))))))) don't know what to say hun, but wanted to you to know you'd been heard

Susan
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(((((((Sami))))))


We're here for you......keep remembering that. It's not quite the same as in person......but you are loved and cared for here!

What terrible memories you have to deal with! I'm glad you could write it out.....hope it was healing at least in a little way. Your abuser was a monster....but he DIDN"T drop you Thank God.

Congrats on gettiing your paper in the booklet! I'd love to read it......is it something you'd be able to post?

Remember I care for you and worry for you and love working with you!

Beagle

Thanks....
monster maybe but i still see and love this person. Life sucks and hurts so much. The booklet that i promised poor els ages ago is going to be online. I am just starting work on the web site to get it online soon so i will let you know ty

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You are always in my thoughts. I think about you often and hope that you find some peace in your life soon. Please hang in there and know you're loved.



Aisha

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Sami!!

You are in my thoughts -

I send the most warm and comfy hugs to you, a lot of them.

I so wish there were more I could do. Wish we could talk together. If you want, PM me or email me and I'll be there.

Menolly -

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I, too, wish that there was some magic word or some sparkling wand to take all the pain and memories away-----but, unfortunately, this isn't a fairy-tale and-----------------many of us have had to carry someone else's crap around.

Know one thing-----you are a very special gift to the universe that no one else could ever replace. You may not feel like it, But, that doesn't mean that it isn't true. When people treat you like you were treated when you were young----you not only don't think of yourself as unworthy and like garbage---- but you don't even understand what the hell is going on, all around. I can relate, friend.

Please continue to express your pain and know that the little girl inside is being heard and that we do care about you and her.

Warm and radiant love to you.

Sparklee