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I hate him

Half of my life was there. The baby was there, Tim was there and it scared the shit out of me.

I hate the hundred different stories, I hate the cops for covering things up.

I hate the people for blaming it on what he wore and not on how he felt.

I cant understand any of it. I cant understand how poeple must be feeling, how Tim saved those people, how someone can just wake up one mornign and say "today is the day. Today is the day I kill everyone."

He had eggs for breakfast, got dressed, put his guns in his car and just drove out to shoot people.

Where was the security guard that is always at that door nagging people to stay 9 feet from the building with their cigarettes? Didnt he see the guy start pulling weapons out of his trunk? He couldnt have run inside and warned people?

Only one person dead does not make it better. What about 7000 people traumatized for the rest of their lives? What about Tim who didnt want to see a guy get shot while he ran for his life? What about all the people who are going to be plagued for the rest of their lives with the images of injured, bleeding people lying in the hallways begging for help. Plagued with the images of one girl dead and left in the school for hours because she was already gone and moving her was useless? With the image of a gunman who shot himself, the image of his body in one place and his head in another.

What happened to the second gunman?

What about the people who were frantic for hours while they tried to find their friends and family? People like Daisy who knew that half her family was there. Couldnt find her husband, the cops wouldnt tell her where they moved her baby to.

Okay so his life sucked, so does mine. He obviosuly had some sort of issue, so do I. I have seen someone die, and now so have many of my friends. Does that give me the right to go and shot his family? Shoot his friends? He must have had at least two to get the guns that he carried. There is no good reason. A good reason does not exist. How can you justify it? What way is there? What possible reason? Hurting does not make it okay. Being hurt by others should be the lesson that hurting people does not pay. You won't be remembered like Romeo and Juliet. You wont be remembered as someone who died gallant under the street light in a hail of bullets. You will be remembered as a man who was so cowardly, such a fucking weasly, slimey chicken shit of a man who could not face his own problems like an adult, or like a human. You will be remembered as the man who when the going got tough, he got out his gun and hurt people who had nothing to do with him. You will be remembered as the man who, when it came time to face the music of what you had done, instead of going out with your head up, you took the easy way out, you took the weakling's way out, you took the short cut to hell. You cheated, you got off better then you deserved. You will not be hailed in the underground as a strong man who stood up for your rights but laughed at as a man who's britches were to big for him and you will be hated for the bad name that you have given to others who are suffering but do what they can to do what it was that you set as your goal for the year and which you obviously were to weak to acheive - staying alive.

Black clothes do not make people homicidal. Neither does Marilyn Manson, video games or trench coats, forum boards about vampires or being able to get firearms. And those things do not make it okay, those things are not a reason to kill other people. There is no reason to kill other people. It just doesnt exist.

I hate you.

(((((((((((((((Ly)))))))))))))
I agree.

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Iam almost crying at your words. You are so right. There is never a reason for taking life. And he is a coward.

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I don't know what to say hun. Your words are golden and right on the mark. There is no reason. There is no excuse. There is no logic. I think that is what makes it so hard for the rest of us to try and understand and move on. How does why understand something so inconprehensable? I am so sorry for your pain hun and I am thankfull Tim is alive please keep writting and getting this stuff out.

Lots of love hun

((((((((((((((Lyanna))))))))))))))))))) Im with you hun

It is the randomness of it that gets to me.

He didnt know those poeple, he wasnt a student there.

I can understand, not condone mind you, but understand an act of violence against someone you know, but these are totally random people

what kind of power does it take to hurt totally random people