WHAT THE HELL my fucking goddamn psychiatrist basically doesnt believe me.
when i told her what happened in therapy on wednesday. she referenced a situation where i was paranoid about my freinds talking about me. and said, maybe it is that you are paranoid about this. since you dont have any memory. and i told her i see pictures of it. and she was like since you have no memory there is a 50/50 chance that this actually happened. you are aware of false memories so maybe this isnt real and i'd encourage you to analyze yourself and try and figure out if this is real or not. and she kept saying the stupidist stuff
i hate her what the fuck is her problem. not only do i know have another stressor (hating her) but i am starting to question my own thoughts. did this really happen? i dont know anymore....
I DONT FREAKING KNOW I HATE MY LIFE
Full Version: UGH
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I'm so sorry the pdoc is not sensitive. My last pdoc was like that saying i need to take a step back and whatever but i never listened to her. Is there any way you can get another pdoc (if your comfortable with that) My school assigns people their pdocs and i didn't know until the very end that i could have switched pdocs the whole time (because she was refusing to write my prescriptions). I wish you the best, and remember I'm always here to listen.
Love,
Manda
I'm so sorry the pdoc is not sensitive. My last pdoc was like that saying i need to take a step back and whatever but i never listened to her. Is there any way you can get another pdoc (if your comfortable with that) My school assigns people their pdocs and i didn't know until the very end that i could have switched pdocs the whole time (because she was refusing to write my prescriptions). I wish you the best, and remember I'm always here to listen.
Love,
Manda
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I can understand your confusion at this time in your life with all that is going on lately. I think the point that your psychiatrist may have been trying to make is that there is a lot of controversy over "found" repressed memories sometimes. Especially when it comes about so suddenly. That may be all he was trying to get you to think about, before you thought about making any unproven accusations.
This is something that may in fact have happened to you, just know that we are here to support you thru all the confusion of these times.
kika
I can understand your confusion at this time in your life with all that is going on lately. I think the point that your psychiatrist may have been trying to make is that there is a lot of controversy over "found" repressed memories sometimes. Especially when it comes about so suddenly. That may be all he was trying to get you to think about, before you thought about making any unproven accusations.
This is something that may in fact have happened to you, just know that we are here to support you thru all the confusion of these times.
kika
Kika makes a very good point.
Whether a therapist believes the situation or not shouldn't lead to a mountain of hate. I would guess its in thier interest to look at things both truefully and possibly made up. Asking you to self analize isn't a horrible thing. I'm sorry that everything went sour during your session.
My question is, if you feel like you would like to go over an issue, whether the therapist questions the validity or not, it should still be covered. Just as was referenced...paranoid about friends.... Whether or not someone is talking about you, there is still a need to address the issue. If I felt someone was talking about me, it would attack my self esteem, no? Is this not an importaint thing? If your mind believes that something happened, its up to both you and the therapist to sort through it and prove it real or not. I can't see just dismissing it. You mention that She kept on saying the stupidist stuff. Was it, or were you just angry as hell?
I've had dreams where I am at work, doing my job. The next day, I'm perplexed, because I find a project undone that I KNOW I did. ( I did it in my dream) If you asked me if I had done it, I'd swear I did. Yet, the evidence proves Me wrong. Its the power of the human mind.
What I would do, is go about proving my feelings, thoughts and beliefs of a given situation. Upon returning to the therapist, you can tell her that this is what I did since our last meeting. Removing the emotional reasoning, anger and fustration, and focusing on the issue that troubles you, will there be the answers you are looking for? Maybe. Returning to the therapist and reapproaching the subject a second time, but with more than just one view or aspect will give you better ground to stand on. Just as you mention the friends talking about you..... write down 10 reasons why you KNOW they are , and 10 reasons that prove they are NOT. PROOF...not a belief, a maybe, a what if, a gut feeling. Instead,...FACTS.
Kika makes alot of sense, I hope I do too
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Whether a therapist believes the situation or not shouldn't lead to a mountain of hate. I would guess its in thier interest to look at things both truefully and possibly made up. Asking you to self analize isn't a horrible thing. I'm sorry that everything went sour during your session.
My question is, if you feel like you would like to go over an issue, whether the therapist questions the validity or not, it should still be covered. Just as was referenced...paranoid about friends.... Whether or not someone is talking about you, there is still a need to address the issue. If I felt someone was talking about me, it would attack my self esteem, no? Is this not an importaint thing? If your mind believes that something happened, its up to both you and the therapist to sort through it and prove it real or not. I can't see just dismissing it. You mention that She kept on saying the stupidist stuff. Was it, or were you just angry as hell?
I've had dreams where I am at work, doing my job. The next day, I'm perplexed, because I find a project undone that I KNOW I did. ( I did it in my dream) If you asked me if I had done it, I'd swear I did. Yet, the evidence proves Me wrong. Its the power of the human mind.
What I would do, is go about proving my feelings, thoughts and beliefs of a given situation. Upon returning to the therapist, you can tell her that this is what I did since our last meeting. Removing the emotional reasoning, anger and fustration, and focusing on the issue that troubles you, will there be the answers you are looking for? Maybe. Returning to the therapist and reapproaching the subject a second time, but with more than just one view or aspect will give you better ground to stand on. Just as you mention the friends talking about you..... write down 10 reasons why you KNOW they are , and 10 reasons that prove they are NOT. PROOF...not a belief, a maybe, a what if, a gut feeling. Instead,...FACTS.
Kika makes alot of sense, I hope I do too
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Can you call a planned parenthood or a rape crisis center near you, and get a reference for someone to talk to about this? Odds are it will be free, and it will be an unbiased second opinion. Most rape crisis centers have counselors on call 24/7 and also have free therapy and groups. There is a lot of controversy surrounding recovered memories, and they might be able to help clear the waters a little bit for you.
Can you call a planned parenthood or a rape crisis center near you, and get a reference for someone to talk to about this? Odds are it will be free, and it will be an unbiased second opinion. Most rape crisis centers have counselors on call 24/7 and also have free therapy and groups. There is a lot of controversy surrounding recovered memories, and they might be able to help clear the waters a little bit for you.
*sighs deeply and reaches out a hand in support*
its your body, your mind, only you can truly really know, and whether it all actually happened as the images you get say or not in my mind is less important than the fact of the feeling of violation, and your need to recover from that and heal.... (or am I not making sense?)
its your body, your mind, only you can truly really know, and whether it all actually happened as the images you get say or not in my mind is less important than the fact of the feeling of violation, and your need to recover from that and heal.... (or am I not making sense?)
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Everyone above me makes a lot of sense! Remember your Therapist and the pdoc come at things two different angles. The therapist is helping you process your feelings, the doctor is more medical. I don't think it's a matter of Believing you (as in thinking you are being truthful). I think the pdoc is helping you figure out the truth, not accusing you of anything. She said 50/50 chance of being true.....that's NOT saying it's false. You're not sure yourself yet you've said....your doc is actually agreeing with you!
((((Troy))))) makes a good point about memories and dreams playing tricks on us. Maybe you were abused, maybe the memory is true but the person isn't Thats why both doctors are going to be working with you.
It's their job to help you figure this out.......and to talk with each other! And there are other therapeutic methods to help with this too.
It took you a long time to get to this point......be a bit patient....it will take time to get past it!
Take care (((((Alli)))) one step at a time, OK?
Everyone above me makes a lot of sense! Remember your Therapist and the pdoc come at things two different angles. The therapist is helping you process your feelings, the doctor is more medical. I don't think it's a matter of Believing you (as in thinking you are being truthful). I think the pdoc is helping you figure out the truth, not accusing you of anything. She said 50/50 chance of being true.....that's NOT saying it's false. You're not sure yourself yet you've said....your doc is actually agreeing with you!
((((Troy))))) makes a good point about memories and dreams playing tricks on us. Maybe you were abused, maybe the memory is true but the person isn't
Thats why both doctors are going to be working with you.It's their job to help you figure this out.......and to talk with each other! And there are other therapeutic methods to help with this too.
It took you a long time to get to this point......be a bit patient....it will take time to get past it!
Take care (((((Alli)))) one step at a time, OK?
Okay. I've calmed a bit. I'll be getting a new psychiatrist has this is not the only time I have been upset by her actions as a doctor. I have tried to find a new one but it's been pretty difficult. Not many doctors are taking on new patients. But I'll find one.
I've just been real sensitive and anyone and anything seems to make me wild with anger. I guess I'll just hold tight and try to stay calm.
thats all for now.
I've just been real sensitive and anyone and anything seems to make me wild with anger. I guess I'll just hold tight and try to stay calm.
thats all for now.
(((((((((Alli)))))))))))))) a hard and confusing place to be at. The others make a lot of sense. Maybe she IS trying to help you but its scary to be stuck questioning your own thoughts and feelings. I know from experience myself that its the worst place to be. In the end only you know .. and it seems you do
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