Sami
May 17 2006, 07:20 AM
My "story" warnings for high triggers
How one day changed my life forever. I met a girl online and we made a good friendship. I rememeber that morning i was happy and confident and i was going to meet her. I took my friend with me and after a while he left me with the girl and her boyfriend. We all got on great and agreed to meet up again a few days later.
I got ready i wanted to wear something nice and make a good impression for our second meeting. I went alone. Her boyfriend met me. Said she was running late from college and we had to go collect her. I felt a bit nervous but i passed it as i would be nervous anyway. I expected to see her not him. I got into his car. He tricked me we drove and drove NOT to c ollege. I realised something was very wrong and tried to get out the car at some traffic lights but i couldnt. We drove to some woods where again i tried to make a run for it but he caught me. He sexually assulted me and raped me in the bushes. I thought he was going to kill me but he didnt. He thought it was all some kinda game saying he wouldnt rape me but doing it anyway minutes later. Then after that he made me get in the car again so he could take me home "safely" to the ferry.
This one day changed my life forever. Has any single event changed your life? I have spent years working on this and even had to teach myself it was safe to leave my house after two years trapped inside. Have you changed your life back after a traumatic event?
Lace
May 22 2006, 04:44 AM
(((((((((((Sami))))))))))))))
My heart really goes out to you. I can imagine the thoughts that must have had. I had a day very similar to the one you speak of and I too am working on undoing all the damage that was done.
Huggles,
Lace
TexanHoney
May 22 2006, 05:27 AM
((((((((((((((((((Sami))))))))))))))))
Something similar happened to me too, involving my ex husband. I don't think I will ever be the same as I was before. It took me years to be able to realize that not every single man alive is scum. I still have issues with men sometimes, and have to fight that.
Maybe things can't be changed back, but I hope to move past them.
flossy38
May 22 2006, 01:53 PM
(((((((((((((((sami))))))))))))))) aw hun, i cant imagine how scared and confused you must have been

I hate that that happened to you, or to anyone at all. Thinking of you and huge huggles being sent. Thankyou for your trust and sharing this awful, awful event with us,
love,
flossy
Kika
May 22 2006, 07:17 PM

Sami
I'm sorry that you had to go thru that, it was a terrifying and devastating experience for you. I was 12 years old the first time I was raped. Yes .... the first time, due to being in the foster care system, I was at the mercy of others that took advantage of the situation. It was 3 years before I was finally able to do something about it and get out of that situation. It has taken me almost 30 years to get thru it and I still have flashbacks at times, and the anxiety attacks.
I hope things get better for you Sami.
luvs
kika
KittenLyn
Jun 3 2006, 11:05 AM
(((Sami))) My step uncle raped me for the first time when I was 12. I will not tell details as there was much violence involved. Although it continued for many years, this first time is the one that affected me the most. Like TH, my exhusband picked up where my uncle left off. I still have trust issues. I am not sure I will ever resolve everything, but I continue to work at it. Hugs to you all.
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