[iam_i_said]

My depression has come back full force, for whatever reason and I am doing things i shouldn't do.
I've talked to my therapist and she gave me 2 choices: either go to the hospital inpatient or go to a group that meets 3x a week I chose to go to the group, although they may change their minds tomorrow after they see how bad i'm doing.
So, if I don't come in here, you'll know why.

[Elsbeth]

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I'm so sorry things are going so badly for you. Just remember that whatever your doctor or therapist decides, it's all for YOU. You have someone working on what the best thing to do for you is so you don't have to worry about it. Make the best use of your team! (doc, pdoc, T, etc) Thats why it's called a mental health provider team!

What you have to worry about it getting better.

I know neither is fun...Group or hospital but I hope you can absorb everything they offer you and hopfully start feeling better soon. I finally, after 14 years, have learned that the groups the hospital offers are actually helpful. Who knew??? Heh And groups? They aren't just torture either!

Please feel better and thanks for letting us know after a post saying how badly you feel what it means if you disapear for awhile. Now we won't worry where you went.

Be well. Update us when you feel able or are able. I hope things only go up from here.

[JenB]

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You made the right decision to get back into therapy so I'm glad to hear that you decided to go to her before things got worse. That means you know yourself!

As far as the group/hospital thought... Of course neither are a cure, nor a quick fix. Have you been in the hospital before? I know it sounds scary, maybe even terrifying. The thing about it is that it's a chance to rest. You don't have to worry about keeping yourself safe or taking care of YOU! You will be handle your personal care (of course) and there will be groups, but you don't have to fight to be safe, and there will be someone there all the time if you feel impultuous (sp?) and fear yourself. Be honest with them and they will do what's best for you (even if/when you hate it).

With the group, I would think it depends on how you feel about being able to keep yourself safe and if you can deal (on many levels) with being alone for the time you're not in the group. It's also a consideration about the drive to and from group - if your concentration is good enough to make that drive.

Thank you for sharing your situation with us. As Els said, we won't worry about you (as much) knowing that you'll be getting the best care you can. Your team is YOUR team and they have only your best interest at heart. Please take under advisement that it is always best to chose to go into the hospital yourself rather than someone forcing you to go in. If it comes down to your doctor telling you she WILL put you in, tell her that you agree to signing yourself in!

Please take care of yourself! And remember that you have your BF family behind you

Blessings,
Jen

[Sami]

Good luck. Thats a great step to go to the group. I hope it helps you a lot. Keep us updated on your progress.

[jane_l]

Kudos to you for going to group therapy!!

I'm sending you all of my positive thoughts. (and electronic flowers!!)